Sunday, February 21st, 2010
The baby is moving right now, and it is the weirdest feeling ever. A few weeks ago on my June 2010 moms message board, all the lucky early-movement-feelers tried to describe it to those of us still waiting for those elusive kicks. There was a lot of talk of “butterflies” and “flutters.” But this doesn’t feel anything like flutters to me.
Maybe it’s because I couldn’t feel her move until a relatively late 21 weeks (my anterior placenta cushions the blows), so by now she’s already moved beyond butterfly-strength moves to kung fu. Or maybe “flutters” is the only word people can think of to describe a sensation no words have been invented for yet.
I’ve been sitting here, concentrating on Ruby’s movements, trying to decide what’s a kick or a punch or a roll or a flip, and trying to define the way they feel. There are jabs, twitches, bumps and even scrapes. Sometimes, the bumps are strong enough they can move my hand if I lay it in the right place, especially late at night. Last week, on a day when I hadn’t felt her move yet and had us both freaking out, D put the heartbeat monitor on my belly, and she immediately kicked (or something) right next to it. I felt it, and D saw it, and we both looked up at each other with wide eyes and then laughed, because here she is still in the womb and already scaring us and relieving us in the next moment.
Tonight, D laid his ear against my belly and tried to hear the heartbeat, because soon he’s supposed to be able to do that. She’d been moving down low, and we hoped she’d give him a bump in the cheek, but even his voice crooning, “Rubyyyyy” wouldn’t coax her to move again.
So for a while longer yet, I am the only one in on the secret of her movements. I try to tell D about it – about the way she is still burrowed into my left side when I wake up in the morning, how this morning I rubbed the knot that is her and she started moving, the way her wiggling feels exactly like you’d think a little alien swimming in your belly would feel.
But the truth is, he will never fully understand how strange and amazing it feels, or how real it makes her for me. He loves her and is so excited about her, but she isn’t always present for him the way she is for me.
Earlier on, people asked me if I “felt pregnant,” and I didn’t always. But now there isn’t a moment I forget – even when she’s not moving, she’s there, making my body feel like a stranger’s under my hands, or turning an afternoon of the mildest manual labor into a monumental undertaking, or interfering with my ability to get off the couch quickly or put on socks. And I don’t mind these little hindrances, because they are harbingers of her and reminders of her.
While we won’t meet face to face for another 15 weeks or so, she is here already, and we are already getting to know one another. She hears me singing Pure Imagination while we cook dinner, demanding Millie stop eating the cats’ food, seducing her father, ordering endless extra hot bean burritos with extra cheese, and complaining about our ongoing ladybug infestation (not all at the same time, of course).
Meanwhile, the only clues I have about my girl are in these non-fluttery little flutters. Somehow, though, they are more than enough to stir my imagination.
Update: Of course, the night after I wrote this post, D felt Ruby move for the first time! We’d been folding laundry in the bedroom, and I lay down on the bed with my head at the foot. She started moving like crazy – she’s been a busy bee all day – so D lay down the opposite direction and put his hand on my belly. At first the movements were way down low where he couldn’t feel them, but suddenly she got really active. It felt like she was rolling over and over (I’ve been watching so much figure skating lately, maybe she was attempting a triple axle in utero?), and finally he felt the little knocks against his hand. Then he took his hand away and saw her move several times. I still haven’t seen it (seeing my belly past the boobs while lying down is kind of a challenge), so I asked him to describe what it looked like. He put his hand under the blanket and moved it around. And that is exactly what it feels like it would look like!




I described those movements to my husband as feeling like being tickled (or elbowed or hit) only from the inside. It’s a wonderful feeling (when it doesn’t hurt!), enjoy every single minute of it. If you’re anything like me, you’ll miss it once she’s born. You’ll lie there waiting for her to move and suddenly remember she’s not in there anymore, the babyhotel is empty. It’s sad for a moment, until you remember she’s not in there anymore because she’s in your arms–even better! ;-)
Oh, and you can send me some of those ladybugs (can you send bugs internationally?! LOL). We’re forever collecting them and bringing them back to our garten!
By the third trimester, the word “pregnant” seemed wholly inadequate to describe “my condition”. I’m not amplified by a two-syllable adjective; I’ve got another human being inside of me!
Yep, I do miss the kicks, even two years later.
i love to see women that is doing some figure skating , they are really beautiful and gracefull.-;`
i love to see women that is doing some figure skating , they are really beautiful and gracefull.`.’
i love to see women doing some figure skating routines.,;
my girlfriend got a bad sprain during her figure skating routine but she is fine now’`-
i would love to do figure skating every week, this has been my hobby and a mild form of exercise for my body ‘;`
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